For the whole week of school, yeah since last week i've been sad. surprised much? and im glad i did not show it in front of friends.
i've put it into words and change it into sarcasm when im with my sec schl bros, and i think they know a bit, not the whole but abit, of what im feeling.
however, mum always, she always knows anything that's happened to me whenever i step into the house and greeted her.
nevermind about my personal problems but the internal ones, i just hope our family can shut them all up. and the thought of dad resisting or ignoring the everyday physical pain a 50year old have to go through and mum complaining she cant see or hear that well, just adds up to the pressure.
somehow, i thank god for all this. i know someone out there is facing much more pressure/troubles worse than what im facing. i'll just pray for the better and hops everything turns out fine.
and soccer, just doesnt seems that much fun now. i mean yea, whenever im in the field or street soccer or anywhere with the ball im happy. but as soon as the legs tire, the pressure just comes back.
oh, slap urselfs if u think this is an emo post. haha.
and please, dont ever ask me what happen or anything after reading this post, u'll know i'll tell when time's right. for now, i'll wish for saturday to come quickly then followed by sunday.
