do you fear rejection? and so it echoes, as i walk feeling weak, waist down. the 5minutes walk to home seems somewhat further.
i keep telling myself to wait. wait like how i waited in sec schl days. even longer than that.
every single day, every ounce of sweat dripped down during training i keep thinking. the blank stares i gave at the small tv in the train just lost inbetween guilt and what seems best.
it's hard to always seem second best. the barriers are right there in front of me. i just need to cross over them.
my legs cant carry me there. cowardly standing,staring at it. and so i waited...and waited.
and then i'll ask myself, where are you now.. i looked around................
