Shout out to ma buddy.. EUGENE..and the hottest girl in my class who let skirts look like mini skirts, AUDREY.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY..
self proclaiming tmr holiday..eventhough school is still on..
aah yes..18...my class,slowly each of the peeps turning eigtheen..for some,its just another day of getting gifts gifts and more gifts due to rich parents..for others,there are friends to go out with..for the minority..problems start pouring in as they start thinking maturely; feel that they just wanna turn back time and do their best during sec school, or their own family having troubles right now..and they need to adapt to something new,... then the thinking of working to support oneself comes in....but the contrast is,less time with family and fatigue will be added on...and studies will be affected...and when studies is affected,he/she might not achieve one off their goals which is getting a diploma or higher nitec cert or education certificates..but then comes back the thought of wanting to help and work...it goes on like a cycle....everyday keep thinking bout it but doing nothing...due to the lack of confidence in oneself....but thats life..we need to be quick and adapt to the changes that are around us..
had a chat with my dad a few days back..he's telling me bout having girlfriends.. and not having girlfriends...he is ok with me having girlfriends right now..but then he scared i wont be like my cuzzin...age 20 or sumting...see..he doesnt have a girlfriend and he has already travelled to places like bali and doing stuffs like surfing...and having HAYABUUSA park at his car park...my dad's point is..he wants me to enjoy saving many many bucks and spending it on personal experience and stuffs that is achievable... then came bout money...my dad....he apologies..that nearly touched me and made me cry...but must hold back..coz having man to man talk...he apologies that he couldnt give the full financial support like our family had when i was 6... he told had he have the money..i'd be at autralia now attending a football academy..his face was sad...i answered 'thats life, dad'..then he told me its good that i understand...i just nooded...he concluded with education..study hard..dont be like him already turning 50 and when his company does not need his assistance then good riddance. and then how's he gonna find job? haiz...
grandma was warded into hospital..again...since great grandma passed away,grandma turned sick....due to that...my dad...he too...sick....been coughing a lot of days and sneezing his way to sleep..went home just now..mum talk to bro bout finance....ended up intense argument..but its my bro problem...sometimes i feel like throwing the teak dining table chair at him..and make him realise that he is 21 for crying out loud..
these are just the tip of the iceberg im sharing to u readers about..there are other problems happening here that just have to be solved..with friends like eugene and my sec school peeps just takes away my prob for awhile..that helps at times..still..this is reality .nevermind..i'll take it slow..god,give me strength...please..
im done... and btw..im just stating my thoughts..not asking for pityness...ahakz..thats all bebeh
