Patience.........a word which have a strong meaning.... a person will be in a peace of mind if he is patient........ haizz...i dunnoo... talking bout patient reminds me of fishing...u see.....by going Overnight fishing...i could relax my self,calm my nerves down and sort my problems...and think bout her... Overnight fishing have really help me a lots in controlling my anger...coz i cud talk to my dad about manlihood...and life...and obstacles and relax...but i have already not gone Overnight fishing for a very very loooooong time...and i think i cant fully contol my bad side.... i dunnoo.....today.....went bowling with the guys and coexistance(without candy)....it was ABOUT to be a great day for me when that bladi...fucking..irritating...damn....HEADACHE came...shit man.... not wanting for ppl to noe...i jst manage to force a smile and make repeated jokes like saying "basketball" to yus when she was about to bowl....then garanti made her angry plus irritated...nampak sah....then while playing.................fever up down up down. luckily sydi bought hot milo....then i made a strike here and there...then i wasnt like talking much to yus...bummer man...shit man..... then i have these terrible news came from two of my frends....haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........i feel so broken up....and i give up......hey!what am i saying...i WILL NEVER GIVE UP..... then got one more bad news...i stopped playing for balestier...coz of o levels...haiz..fitness will be slacken by then... aniwae,the first bad news really crash my whole day down...everything was going down....... "and even though i noe...that everything might go...go downhill from here...im NOT AFRAID" yellowcard songs really help me a lotz......just a msg to those people who gave me their support: guys,don waste time on me...im jst an invisible joker who is here to entertain you for a short while b4 u guys get on with life..im no important significance to u guys...so,thanks for the support..if u wanna still continue supporting me..then go ahead....if not....im not mad... to the ones who help me: thanks man......really...if u guys think that still....nothing cud be done...just stop ok....no need to tire urself out...for those who wanna stay helping me...i appreciate it...thankz....... aniwae,these splitting headache is killing me... i just need to shout very loud at y pillow...or maybe go overnight fishing with my dad....haiz...imreally really looking for that patience in me...i mean,am i a patient person????????am i??????or am i a really timid person who squats,leaning against the wall in the shadows.....feeling my regrets...haizzzzz.......... i jst dunno....dunno what to say....dunno what to do....dunno how to make a difference so u could see that im changed...and becoming a better person than b4...all i cud do is.......to perservere..... even if i have to do this alone......I WILL....no doubts about that....
